God’s Wildest Dream
my journey seeking the heart of God
Kingdom Exploration
The Kingdom is a bit of a mystery, like just about everything I’ve encountered while following Jesus. I love mystery. The feeling that there is something bigger than I am. Something more curious than I can understand. There’s still mystery in the earth. There are even...
I Didn’t Do It – It Wasn’t Me
Every morning I awake breathing air I didn’t create. Every day I drink water formed in an earth I had no part in making. Yet, utterly dependent upon air and water for life. A picture of dependency I do not recognize or acknowledge. Perhaps, like my dependency on God....
The Bread of Adversity
In this past year of mourning my husband Mike’s passing I’ve learned some things about pain. It never occurred to me there could be anything good come out of suffering. Most of my life has been spent actively working to avoid pain, but as I followed Jesus into this...
Sharing the Work
I think God likes to work with us because it’s one way we can get to know Him. Like friends who like to be together, accomplishing something side-by-side is a way of enjoying each other’s company. Learning new things about each other’s character, sense of humor, and...
Be Radiant
Is 60:1-2 TPT Rise up in splendor and be radiant, for your light has dawned, and Yahweh’s glory now streams from you! Look carefully! Darkness blankets the earth, and thick gloom covers the nations, but Yahweh arises upon you and the brightness of his glory appears...
An ending and a beginning
Nothing prepares you for an immense loss. No amount of mental stretching makes you fit for the experience. No exercise in being strong or tough prepares you. There is no way to know ahead of time just what places of your heart will break. No way to experience just how...
Facing Reality
The Kingdom of God is an unseen realm. “Very truly I tell you, no one can see the kingdom of God unless they are born again.” John 3:3 NIV Every born-again child of God is invited to facing reality in this unseen kingdom. FACING REALITY What does facing reality...
The Ungiven Fear
What I don’t give to God cannot be touched by Him. Cannot be healed by Him. He cannot show me the truth of any of the things I don’t or won’t give to Him. Like the boy who gave his bread and fish to Jesus. So trusting and small, yet so big in the hands of Jesus. I...
The Christmas Yes
Blessed is she who has believed that what the Lord has said to her will be accomplished. Luke 1:45 —— Jesus keeps quietly, gently inviting me to follow Him into places I’ve never been. Places with people. Creative environments with artists. Even into unfamiliar...
The Two Great Lies
Who are we? According to Darwin's theory of evolution, we are not created in God’s image. We are the same as the animals. And yet the bible teaches we are made up of earth and of God. All things and creatures that He created He spoke into being with His voice except...
God’s Wildest Dream
You are God’s Wildest dream. You probably didn't know that. I know I didn't. No one ever told me. Maybe they didn't know either. I have ached most of my life with an underlying sense of my own lack. A self-hatred even. Knowing I was not good enough but fighting for a...
The Random Dangerous People
I have often thought I should wear a button that says, “Does not play well with others,” just to warn people there’s a cranky introvert coming their way. It’s not that I don’t want to play well, it’s just that I don’t see how to and when I do, it feels a bit like...